Sleepless night

A sleepless night. I am still sitting in front computer although the time gonna arrive 3am. Something rolling in my mind and i can't get it lost.

She gonna leave. She gonna put down all her friends, family, relatives, anything that belongs to her here and depart to England. I thought i won't be sad again. Yet, i am not. Our memory keep flashing in my mind.

We had a huge argument before. It's just because of a small little matter. I regret! Totally regret! I know i shouldn't felt regret but i felt it! I wanna tell her that i really not angry of her and i hope i can be friend with her again. But every times when i look to her face, my word will stuck in my mouth. I don't know how to express my word, my feelings to her. I scare i will give a wrong meaning and make her mistaken.

About this migrate, i really worry her so much. I m scaring that will she get a better life there? Hopefully~ I know she is a good girl. She won't let people to worry her. Lord, can YOU please bless her always? No matter what happened. I hope that she won't get bully by the people there and her step-mother.

And the farewell party, i know i m not welcomed. I know that u will unhappy if i appear. So, i decided not to attend although i hope to go there. I know that if u wanna make the people u love happy, u should do something that she will happy. My disappearance will make her happy, aren't?

Anywhere, i wish her good luck and all the best! GOD bless u and u must take good care of yourself. Darling, i love u! You are always my sweetheart, my dai po! muackz~