我看了他的部落格
坦白说
当我在看的时候
我是笑着的
不是因为什么
而是因为我知道他生活得很好
或许我真的不适合讨厌一个人吧！
我不想逼自己去讨厌他
生气？ 只是几天而已
凡是认识我的人都应该懂吧！
我跟我爸说了我跟他的事
我真的错了吧！
可是我知道该负起责任的不是我一个
忘记吧！
如果我还在意 双手的拳头还是继续握紧的话
我极其量也只会得到我拳头所握紧的东西
那东西是仇恨 是伤心
只有张开双手 才能释放自己
如果上帝给我一个机会
我会张开双手拥抱他
跟他说 “朋友，谢谢你”
放下吧！
我也已经放下了！
那你呢？
Saturday, 21 November 2009
Sunday, 8 November 2009
To you
It's my first time wake up so early on Sunday. I can't sleep well because I m thinking of him whole night. His name keep flashing in my mind. I think I have to clam down and think what he told me on midnight.
My condition is not good. All things gone messy. I can't give him my answer during this period because I might figure out a wrong answer. Please give me some times. If you really hope to start the relationship with me, you won't mind to wait the answer from me right? The answer will be correct and no doubt when it's came out from a clear and sober mind.
I will think twice before i make decision. This is because I really don't want to destroy our good relationship. I don't hope that I can't continue to friend with you afterward. Hope you understand what I mean.
My condition is not good. All things gone messy. I can't give him my answer during this period because I might figure out a wrong answer. Please give me some times. If you really hope to start the relationship with me, you won't mind to wait the answer from me right? The answer will be correct and no doubt when it's came out from a clear and sober mind.
I will think twice before i make decision. This is because I really don't want to destroy our good relationship. I don't hope that I can't continue to friend with you afterward. Hope you understand what I mean.
Monday, 2 November 2009
Sleepless night
A sleepless night. I am still sitting in front computer although the time gonna arrive 3am. Something rolling in my mind and i can't get it lost.
She gonna leave. She gonna put down all her friends, family, relatives, anything that belongs to her here and depart to England. I thought i won't be sad again. Yet, i am not. Our memory keep flashing in my mind.
We had a huge argument before. It's just because of a small little matter. I regret! Totally regret! I know i shouldn't felt regret but i felt it! I wanna tell her that i really not angry of her and i hope i can be friend with her again. But every times when i look to her face, my word will stuck in my mouth. I don't know how to express my word, my feelings to her. I scare i will give a wrong meaning and make her mistaken.
About this migrate, i really worry her so much. I m scaring that will she get a better life there? Hopefully~ I know she is a good girl. She won't let people to worry her. Lord, can YOU please bless her always? No matter what happened. I hope that she won't get bully by the people there and her step-mother.
And the farewell party, i know i m not welcomed. I know that u will unhappy if i appear. So, i decided not to attend although i hope to go there. I know that if u wanna make the people u love happy, u should do something that she will happy. My disappearance will make her happy, aren't?
Anywhere, i wish her good luck and all the best! GOD bless u and u must take good care of yourself. Darling, i love u! You are always my sweetheart, my dai po! muackz~
She gonna leave. She gonna put down all her friends, family, relatives, anything that belongs to her here and depart to England. I thought i won't be sad again. Yet, i am not. Our memory keep flashing in my mind.
We had a huge argument before. It's just because of a small little matter. I regret! Totally regret! I know i shouldn't felt regret but i felt it! I wanna tell her that i really not angry of her and i hope i can be friend with her again. But every times when i look to her face, my word will stuck in my mouth. I don't know how to express my word, my feelings to her. I scare i will give a wrong meaning and make her mistaken.
About this migrate, i really worry her so much. I m scaring that will she get a better life there? Hopefully~ I know she is a good girl. She won't let people to worry her. Lord, can YOU please bless her always? No matter what happened. I hope that she won't get bully by the people there and her step-mother.
And the farewell party, i know i m not welcomed. I know that u will unhappy if i appear. So, i decided not to attend although i hope to go there. I know that if u wanna make the people u love happy, u should do something that she will happy. My disappearance will make her happy, aren't?
Anywhere, i wish her good luck and all the best! GOD bless u and u must take good care of yourself. Darling, i love u! You are always my sweetheart, my dai po! muackz~
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