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"请你清醒一点好吗？再这样下去没有人会喜欢你的！只会让更多人讨厌你，不跟你做朋友而已！＂


＂我无所谓..."


＂你真的无所谓吗？控制一下自己的言行举止！我真的看到就讨厌！＂


＂没关系，就讨厌我吧！反正我自己都非常厌恶自己，你们讨不讨厌我对我来说已经不重要了！＂




我真的很讨厌现在的自己！

T.T

为什么你总是要让我等呢？
我不喜欢等待的感觉
仿佛时间过得太慢
感觉很辛苦
真的很辛苦
是你已经不在乎了吗
所以你不介意让我在一旁苦苦地等待你
爱一个人是这样的吗？

我没耐性
别再让我等了，好吗？

对神的话

3.18pm
星期二

窗外刮着风
应该是要下雨了吧
此刻的心情是极度地想念他
有股冲动想要打给他
可是被我自己制止了
他刚才没回我信息
显然他在忙着上课
身为女朋友的我
更不应该打扰他
不是吗？

我知道我不应该胡思乱想
要知道他已经忙了一整天 已经累了
回到房间还要应酬我 哄我 安慰我
久而久之他一定会更厌倦 继而离开我
我能做的 就是尽量保持开心的心情
让他在我面前不必伪装 不必掩饰
舒服自我地聊着我们开心的话题
又或者当他向我吐苦水时
我还能够以开心的心情去感染他 安慰他 哄他
我想 这才是一个称职的女朋友应该做的本分吧

全能的神啊
求您赐予我您的大爱
让我可以继续全心全意地爱他 呵护他
同时也祈求神您将我身上的负面情绪带走
让我可以遵照您的旨意去爱别人
阿门

酝酿已久的雨终于下了
我的话也说完了
一切都该画上
句点

Suck...

Unfortunately,
the feeling came bek again!
Oh my god!
I reali hate this...
I m tried my best to tell myself nt to think those bad things,
bt I cnt make it.
It is totally nt under my control...
Piss off!
U r crap!


Phew~
homeostasis again...
I m feeling better in the worst method that I hope I wun use it again...
Fine~!

Simply scold for nth...

I m so useless.
Aren't?

Today I jz let the time flies by...
Obviously, it is for nth.
My mind start to roll n roll...
Ytd was a sunny day bt today is a cloudy day.
Huh? Quite sunny also?
Nono... U misunderstood my meaning..
I mean, in my heart, ytd was a sunny day bt today us a cloudy day.
I should hapi in his birthday?
Yeah! Bt...
It is nt happy at all.
He keep ignore me n
tis make me feel like we r two independence ppl who stay in a relationship...
Mayb love should be in that way?

I m angry n sad.
Do anyone understand my feeling?
Y everytimes when I get upset or angry or sad he wun tam bek me or do anything that make me happy?
Stop telling me he duno hw to do...
Fuck off! I reali hate this situation...
This is the most awful excuse that I had been heard in 16 years since I born.
y? Tell me y?

I hate it
I reali hate it
y?

Mayb I should continue carry out "homeotasis" process when I m sad?
Fuck off !


After this,
I feel comfortable nw...
Phew~