I am listening some sad melody. It's really made me feel peace, but in the same times it's made me feel that i m helpless too. Why i will have that kind of feeling? I am really out of ideas. Maybe i am a emotional girl?
I found that i have lots of matters stuck in my mind and also my heart. I can't release it out or i should say i don't know how to release it out. In this seconds maybe i was happy because i temporary put the matter in a side, but the next seconds, i become sad again. I know i shouldn't think so much but the sad feeling did not go out from my mind, my heart. It makes me start to figure what's going on. But unfortunately, i always can't figure it out. So i will feel like i m useless and i shouldn't be a human being in such a bad condition, bad temper, bad behavior. I am not blaming God or my parents. Yet, I am angry of myself because i didn't cherish my past well.
Maybe all the matters is not as complicated as i thought. It might not be important and i should not think about it and feel sad continuously. Aren't? I really have to put it down and let the wind to blow it away. Tomorrow will be better than today, right? I hope i can found a guy stay by my side and lend his arm, ears to me. I don't really know that can i believe my girls friends. Maybe this is what the human's normal reactions after being betrayed by someone that he/she believed deeply. I started to have a thought in my mind. Is guys won't betray girls? Does guy believable?
I should open my fist and let the sadness go. I hope i can do it. God bless me please. Guys, can we go out and have a drink so that you can lend me an ear to listen my truth feeling. Do u?
I found that i have lots of matters stuck in my mind and also my heart. I can't release it out or i should say i don't know how to release it out. In this seconds maybe i was happy because i temporary put the matter in a side, but the next seconds, i become sad again. I know i shouldn't think so much but the sad feeling did not go out from my mind, my heart. It makes me start to figure what's going on. But unfortunately, i always can't figure it out. So i will feel like i m useless and i shouldn't be a human being in such a bad condition, bad temper, bad behavior. I am not blaming God or my parents. Yet, I am angry of myself because i didn't cherish my past well.
Maybe all the matters is not as complicated as i thought. It might not be important and i should not think about it and feel sad continuously. Aren't? I really have to put it down and let the wind to blow it away. Tomorrow will be better than today, right? I hope i can found a guy stay by my side and lend his arm, ears to me. I don't really know that can i believe my girls friends. Maybe this is what the human's normal reactions after being betrayed by someone that he/she believed deeply. I started to have a thought in my mind. Is guys won't betray girls? Does guy believable?
I should open my fist and let the sadness go. I hope i can do it. God bless me please. Guys, can we go out and have a drink so that you can lend me an ear to listen my truth feeling. Do u?
